Sometimes we just don't know what to do?
And in front of us lies two paths. And both paths will get us to that final destination that is our longing. Our desire.
But which path we take will determine who we are. And by one path we are guaranteed suffering.
And by one path we are promised peace through suffering.
Sometimes we forget to pray for wisdom. We pour ourselves out to our Father and ask direction but then forget to pray for the ability to discern. In discerning you perceive and make judgements - based upon your wisdom. And God grants wisdom and with His love He delivers unto you two gifts. The gift of just feeling - of intuition - of just knowing in heart that a path is wrong.
But my darlins', sometimes we just don't want to know that it is wrong. Sometimes we just want to believe that it really isn't and it is only guilt brought on to us by outside forces that causes us to feel wrong.
And sometimes we are just okay with it being wrong - but we really aren't - are we? Because our heart wouldn't hurt if we were really okay.
You were knitted in the womb by your Maker. And in that knitting He intertwined your being to be in His image. And in His image you recognize wrong by - may we say your gut feelings?
And in His love He delivered the second gift of knowledge acquired. But even one acquires one's knowledge from a God that gifted us with a brain designed by Him. Complicated and wired so we may - by grace - gain knowledge.
So in front of us lies these two paths. And in our heart lies this desire. And in a world perfect as created there would only be one straight path to there. But by sin there are now two. And only by sin and seperation, for God cannot be where there is sin, will you walk the crooked path.
With eyes upon Jesus we walk straight ahead. But with eyes on this world we must make curves and turns and fall into and try to avoid ditches and holes and bumps and piles of wrecked and twistedness that blocks until we are then a wrecked wrong struggling broken person who forgot - or ignored - the prayer of wisdom.
Do you remember the maze from your childhoods that was dark and twisted and full of scares? The maze we would work hard on one time a year to bring you and others laughter? Remember the verses along the paths and the light at the end of the cardboard tunnel? It was to bring you wisdom. It was a way for me to show you to see and learn. It was a way I prayed one grand memory would help keep you out of the dark.
So you, you who are the hearts of my heart - do not listen to me or to your daddy. Seek out for yourself and you shall see because you belong.
If you want to be wise open yourself up to your Father - for He loves you.
Seek out what is the truth and then be ready to accept it and follow it. Pay attention.
Far beyond your own abilities you will then be gifted - you will discern - and you will know what path to place that next step.
And you begin new - fresh and forgiven - always so loved by your Jesus right where you are - trusting and believing you will be blessed.
