I climb into the car for church empty handed. No purse, nothing.
Feels strange so I say,
I feel . . . blah.
What Mommy? From the Maxster.
I feel blah.
Mommy, what is blah?
I don't know, baby . . .
I struggle for words 'cause I'm not really blah in the sense I know, but I think it doesn't matter 'cause this is just one of those conversations that come and go and make no matter.
Just . . . just - empty handed, son.
In a few moments we all get out of the car - all of us empty handed - and walking across the parking lot he says,
I feel blah, Daddy is blah, Sisi is blah.
I laugh until I loudly hear . . .
Mommy, see that lady? She is blah.
Proposition: Name that musical? (Come on, Janice - name that musical?!)
I'm a mother - and a very civilized one at that.
So never ever again tell myself anything with the Maxster doesn't matter. Be a better Mommy? Be a walking dictionary?
So never ever again tell myself anything with the Maxster doesn't matter. Be a better Mommy? Be a walking dictionary?
Keep my mouth shut?
Yeah, that's the one. Keep my mouth shut. 'Cause sponge is listening - and he never keeps his shut - and I'm really tired of crouching behind cars or bushes.