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Thursday, May 27, 2010

Be Extraordinary

Oswald Chambers said:

"God is not concerned about our plans; He does not say - Do you want to go through this bereavement; this upset? He allows these things for His own purpose. The things we are going through are either making us sweeter, better, nobler men and women; or they are making us more captious and fault-finding, more insistent upon our own way. The things that happen either make us fiends, or they make us saints; it depends entirely upon the relationship we are in to God."

I read this earlier today and reread it and reread it.
What is a fiend? 
To be sure I looked it up.  It is what I thought - a devil or demon.
But alongside that was this definition -  A person extremely devoted to a pursuit or study.  A fanatic.
So . . . if what is happening to me is not making me a saint, then it is making me a fiend.  And if I become a fiend due to hardship or unhappiness - or being unsatisfied in the life I have been blessed with - then I will be devoted to this unhappiness.  I will nurture it in my anger and bitterness.  I will pursue it and study it.  I will become a fanatic on unhappiness.
It is not what I wanted, it was not my purpose.  But . . . I did not stop it and now it is mine.
Then I will see no light at the end of the hard road I am on.
I will carry everyone I love down with me.
Isn't that what happens to us?
Can't we wallow in our life's misery until there is no silver lining left to find?

There is a certain circumstance in our life that occurs every couple of years, regular as clockwork.  I don't do very well during this time.  Without a deliverance from above it will be happening very soon.

I'm in preparation mode.  Surely - I tell myself - I've matured and will do better this time.
There are seasons in our life.  We will be sad.  Times will be hard.  Depression will shadow us and can consume us.  If we do not want that to be our legacy we will turn our face to God and seek satisfaction - and happiness will soon follow.
Death, illness, and broken devotion is out of our control. 
Finding peace in it is not. 
These are powerful thoughts, and even though I'm not sure what tomorrow will bring, how I will handle it is what I am working on.  I can pray now for a remembrance of the words of Mr. Chambers - inspired by the word of God.
So . . . to wrap this up on screen and in my heart . . .
for myself and someone I love is this . . .
the more common things, the duty and demands of daily life.  We can allow them to explode into an intimate understanding between us and the Father.
An understanding and acceptance that our destiny may be the ordinary.  There may never be adventure or wealth.
This is the moment that we will either rise or fall, be powerful or weak.  We will walk daily in the unveiled beauty of our life or we will not.
I will be a fiend or I will be a saint.
Oswald Chambers was a Christian minister and teacher who died in 1917 at the age of forty-six.  He wrote the popular devotion book My Utmost for His Highest.  Think on the words in that title.
. . . it depends entirely upon the relationship we are in with God.
We must not let our ability to see God be blinded by life.
Find joy in the ordinary. 
Be extraordinary.

I'll try to meet you there.
 Please check my comment below to clarify what I mean when I speak of depression.


Jennifer said...

I'm in fiend mode today ... thanks for the definition, I needed to hear this.

KTElltt said...

Marie, why do you always make me cry? I got on here to blog about victory in Jesus. Today is my first day in over three years without an EffexorXR (antidepressant). Right around the time Addie was being weaned, I was diagnosed with clinical depression. The meds were needed at the time, and God has been very faithful to walk through every day with me, and Daniel and I have been praying for months about me stopping the meds. Last Thursday, the weaning process began. To put it mildly, there are physical withdrawal symptoms and right now, I do not feel good. It's not depression -- it's physical withdrawal. And my husband is out of town. I can't write the blog I intended to right now because I am so blown away by this Chambers quote. Thank you, thank you for it. I think the Holy Spirit used your blog for me today.

Rie said...

First of all, to everyone out there, including Katie (who already knows this), clinical depression is an illness, a true illness you have no control over. It cannot be lumped in the same category as "down in the dumps."

But, as sure as you cannot wallow in the dumps without becoming the fiend, you cannot go undiagnosed with depression and expect to get better. Barring a miracle, of course, which do still happen everyday.

My postpartum story of depression after Shelby, which was accompanied by terrible seizures, is too long to tell here. I'm a staunce supporter of depression medication.

So glad, Katie, you are well enough to try to get off. Hopefully your imbalance was pregnancy hormone related, like mine was, and you can stay off. No shame if not.

I do not mean to make you cry. I know my blog lately has contained much on seeking joy in circumstances, but that's because I've been in that search due to some things.

I'm praying for you and the physical stuff. I can't wait for the Victory in Jesus post! Just remember, there's still victory in acceptance and taking care of yourself the best way possible if it's needed again.

It's high time for a little humor! So, get ready, hopefully it's coming!

KTElltt said...

HA! All of my cries have been good ones on your blog. They're therapeutic and I'm comfortable with my tears, so I'm thankful for them.

My comments on depression in no way indicate that I think medicine is wrong. I don't. I just know that God has granted me significant healing and a measure of strength I have not known before. So, I know that if I don't try I'll never know if I can live without the meds or not. If not, then I'll go back to my doc, who attends church with me and is so wonderful. I consider the availability of these meds a common grace (many don't but that's ok) and taking them does not equal weakness. Certainly, for those with clinical depression, diagnosis and treatment is needed. I definitely think, though, that Biblical council is needed as well to be sure it is a chemical issue and not situational. That's always very hard to determine. Anyway, this is not about me. I'm just thankful for this post!

Rie said...

You are exactly right - where were you when I needed a guest blogger on this subject!

Rie said...

Also, "comfortable with my tears", I love that. I may steal it!

KTElltt said...

PS "Victory already won" does not mean we don't do battle, though. Don't want anyone to think that I believe everything should be easy because Jesus has defeated Satan. Just clarifying... That will come in my blog. Hopefully tomorrow.

KTElltt said...

Please, steal the phrase! The only way I could ever shed my tears without guilt is to become comfortable with them -- very different from wallowing in them. I just acknowledge them as another part of me that God, in His infinite wisdom and grace, created.

Where was I? Oh, probably crumpled up on the floor somewhere shivering with fear and not realizing that the victory had already been won... :)

Drawing of me losing my cool courtesy of budding artist, Izzy.

Have a dressed up day!

. . . put on a heart of compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience. Colossians 3:12